I've given up pretending like I dont care...

I care, and I miss you so badly! Everytime I see you I feel like crying. Everytime I see her I just wanna run and hide. Everytime I see the two of you together I feel my heart breaking all over again.

I've tried to hide away what I feel but it just makes it all so much worse. Telling myself you're not worth it, my friends telling me I should just get over you, "I deserve something better", it doesnt help! Not at all. I just want you back. Our boring meaningless chats, and awkward calls. The funny moments, having our own jokes that no one else understood.

It's been so long, and still I cant stop thinking about you, about us.

I dont think you've ever quite gotten how much it all meant to me, I dont think I've gotten how much it meant. But I do now, 'cause I miss you so much!


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Sorry, I just needed to write it somewhere...